So yesterday jason and i went to the mall took look for a coach purse for me. Well we stopped in at zales and they have the same ring i got there but its almost two carats all together. It is so beautiful. so the lady is like do you want to trade in your ring for the other? Jason was like sure i looked at him and i said really are you serious he goes yeah its yiur christmas present i was like what this is crazy. so we just pay the difference which is like 800.00. i just couldnt believe it. Its amazing how much i love him he is the best boyfriend any girl could have he is just amazing in every way. he said he has been looking for another ring for me and i was like awww really. i have the greatest life! My little man is doing great too we can have conversations with each other now that is how well he is talking. He is a very smart little boy. He can now recite the grinch doodle bops and wizard of oz and schrek 2 which is his fav. I cannot believe he is going to be two it just flies by so fast. I have got to get his hair cut it is bad his hair is so thick and grows fast. but when dalene cuts his hair he hates it cut he screams so jason and i tryed our selves and he said in an evil way dont do it i said no! Its crazy the stuff he says lol. But anyways i gotta go make lunch!!

Ok so i took parker to see Santa and was he so excited! He got on santas lap and got his little grin it was so funny the lady was in love with him she took two pics of him the one he was turned so the other one was perfect! while we were waiting for the pics he kept trying to go up and talk to santa. He told santa he wanted cars and he said thankyou buh bye! it was a really great memory im glad he is not like most kids and scream! I wish i new how to post the pics but no one will show me so sorry! Everything is great excited for x-mas. Parker got so much stuff i still have to go through all his toys before next week. Well just a quick update!

So nothing much has been going on. Parker is doing great! I just love how freaking smart my child is its amazing that he can sing the doodle bops theme song to anyone. I swear he is going to sing when he gets older he sings all his video songs. Jason took him out sunday in his snow suit to play in the snow and he loved it jason pulled him around in the shovel lol we need to get a sled for him. The other night we were sitting on the couch and jason was saying all these words and parker repeated everysingle one and it was like 35 to 40 words. I just cant get over how big he is getting. Everyday is a new learning experience with him and it is amazing. I really think he needs a sibling but i am just not ready lol. Plus missy 's wedding is august 26 2006 and i am her maid of honor and i really dont want to be prego lol. Missy got a chuaua(spelling?) it is so freaking cute i fell in love with it. But jason still will not get a dog :( OH also i neighbors were stealing electricity from us since the summer we found out it was really fucked up so jason and i really want to save for us to build a house! I cant wait untill 2005 is over what a shitty year. I cant wait for christmas im actually in the spirit this year its been a long time i think it helps that parker is into it this year. He loves the x-mas tree and the lights i put in the window. Jason and i are done with his presents we got him tons of trucks cuz he loves them.  Lately i have been reading books which i havent done since high school and wow been out of there for a while now lol im trying to take time out for myself for a little each day now i think i deserve it i was a little stressed but im doing a lot better! Work is great i guess lol. But i just wanted to update! I have lots of cleaning to do from the destroyer lol.

So Jason might be in a music video. we will leave it at that! But anyways not to much going on parker is great!!!!!!!!!!! Talking like crazy! I miss my grandpa like crazy. I need to lose weight for missys wedding i decided im not gonna eat! lol I told jason that so when i eat he is like i thought you werent eating anymore andi say this is the last time lol. See if i get prego again please god dont let me gain 80lbs again! I may be big and fat but im happy and that is what matters My son was worth it! Ok gotta go!

I am totally spooked out! My mom took my old cat that was still at her house to the humane society cuz she was old and wouldnt eat anymore. she did that on saturday. And she was a bitch of a cat and i told my mom that it would haunt her joking. well missy calls me and tells me my moms cat was back at her house im like what. Im like haha joke is over. WEll my mom gets on the phone and says no really amy she came home and was trying to get in the house. Im like oh my god that is so fucking weird im so spooked out so she said this time its going to the vet and she is not leaving untill they confirm she is dead it was so freaky. I am so spooked out!

Ok so i didnt go to sleep untill 1 am. So what does my lovely son do he wakes up at 630am and its not like he went to bed early. He went to bed at 11pm. ANd he wont take a nap oh man help me im tired and i have to work and he is destroying my house onnce again. why oh why! But i do love him so much still how can you get mad at him he looks at you and you melt! cant wait untill this weekend is over! SHOWER TIME!

So the past three weeks have been ok. My grandfather did pass away. oct.14 in the morning so no one told me untill friday night when my flight flew in. I was really upset that i didnt get to say goodbye. It was nice to see the family in virginia. So sunday we went and saw him which was really hard. He looked like my dad when he was sick it made me have flash backs. but he is in a better place now and not suffering. I sure am going to miss him a lot.

On a good note halloween was great! Parker was so good. He held his bucket the whole time and when we got to the door he would say hi instead of trick or treat and then he would say thank you or ok it was funny. He got tons of candy and people would say oh you are so cute you get more candy and im like no he really doesnt need it and they still did it lol so now jason has lots of candy to eat. We went to missy's mom and dads house and they made food too. Parker kept taking candy out and putting it in the peoples bowls it was funny. after missy's parents we stopped by grandma mikulski's and duane and sandy were there yeah they werent friendly at all and well i really dont care cuz when the fuck do they ever see him. NEVER! Its like when i ask for them to babysit they get an attitude and say well cant you bring him out here. OH sure let me just drive out to marine city with the car i have how bout no he is your fucking grand child! They have bought him nothing! My mom she has bought him so much and she comes and sees him and doesnt mind babysitting when i didnt have money she has bought parker the stuff he needed. Gosh they just are so fucking stupid thats ok just wait till he gets older and doesnt want to go near them cause he dont know them. I guess he only has one real grandparent! When jason and i get married they will not have any say in out wedding not a damn thing. I seriously dont know how jason came out of that family normal i they are all stupid and he is so smart in december he will graduate with two associates and  certifcates and have his bachlors in a year im so proud of him. He keeps his grades up with working taking care of parker and keeping up the house. he is just an amazing person and i love him so much but i hate his family! except his grandma mikulski she is the sweetest!

ok enough of the bitching! i really need to go to the bar!lol ok Parker shit and it smells so bad so i gotta change him well fight to change him! ps i cant  get over how much parker talks and sings songs it is so great to watch him grow its amazing!

Because of Jamie i got a flight for 385.00 im so excited. She is so great! i leave friday and i am back monday. I just cant wait to see my grandpa even if he is out of it im gonna give him a huge hug and kiss and say that everything is ok. Well my mom is coming over and parker has destroyed my lovely house so i get to clean!

Well friday i will be leaving for virginia to see my grandfather. they are doing hospice thursday. I wont be back untill monday. Im gonna miss parker i have never spent a day with out him. It would just be to hard to bring him. I really wanted to drive there but i have no one to come with me. So im flying and its gonna cost 1000.00 dollers round trip just to go to virginia that is just crazy! But i will update later

So my grandpa copp is dieing of lung cancer and hip cancer. First my dad and now my grandpa it is just not fair. I really am not taking this well. He is so important to me. Its like after my dad died my grandpa was the most important man in my life and now the same cancer is taking him from me. It makes me so angry parker has only met him once due to the fact he lives in virginia but we were gonnna go down this march and my grandpa would have been so exstatic but now that is not gonna happen. I already miss him dearly and now im gonna miss him even more. This is the worst year ever. Im 22 and filed bankruptcy my grandpa is dieing i knew a few other people who died and it just really fucking sucks. ANd its like my uncle only calls us when there is bad news i know i wont ever here from the copp family after grandpa dies because they are rich and only care about them selves. So on a happy note Parker is talking up a storm he is such a good boy. Yeah he has his moments but he loves his mommy for sure. he is 30lbs and 36in tall i cant believe it he is so tall for his age. Jason and i are good just busy its hard to see each other with work and all that shit. WEll i gotta go and eat lunch with my little man.